Friday, March 30

~Bird~ Yuya Matsushita


The flowers, the trees and us are all sad 
Only heading towards the sky.
Each time we look down, we notice,
And then look up once again.

You looked sad while you were sleeping
As if you're having a bad dream
I'm here, right beside you
And I won't be going anywhere
HOW (would)DO I LIVE WITHOUT YOU?
Everyone looks up to the sky
Shielding their eyes while looking up
Looking at the blue sky
Searching while sighing
Freedom and Selfishness
Interchanges as I live
In a night sky without stars
My eyes wander because I can't find my destination



There is nothing to be afraid
That is only because there is nothing to protect
Things of tomorrow and things in ten years
Are things the present me fears
I NEED HUGGIN' MY SWEET HEART

Everyone cries towards the sky,
Lets hold out hands as dreams are found
The blue sky I see anytime
I protect it forever

Because of being able to spread out and fly freely
I don't yearn longingly anymore
Nobody really has freedom,
for that is not what "freedom" is.
Its just that the sky has no
boundaries
 


In the sky called "you", where only i am locked up.
I'm not going anywhere,
So please don't go anywhere either.


All of the people are in the sky
Inside the cage that is called "Freedom"
Having only you is alright 
Amongst this sky,I don't need wings anymore




(english lyrics)

Black Elegance

yay!!!
i made another coker!!!
wanna see? okay!!! here you go!

see?
hahah! i call this BLACK ELEGANCE!!!
still the same method like i used to before, only this one takes a couple hour to finish it (the gold necklace is heavy!)
do you like it?
ahahah!

black elegance
enjoy!

Wednesday, March 28

~le me playing ps2 with my fren!~

this evening, i went to my best fren house...
just visiting her...
quiet a long time we didn't hang out together *ah, miss those days where we always hangout!*
guess what?
she asked my help to complete the resident evil 4 game... (mah favourite yo!)

resident evil 4
and so, i helped her...
grah!!! when i reach one place, guess what? she started to scream! *garwsh, i really can't concentrate on the game!*
yeah! she scream at this part!
at first, i play cool.....
but then, that damn regenerator *pics above* suddenly appeared, and she screams!
i was shocked and squeal! *damn! there goes my concentration*
and she said to me,
"damn! i don't like this part! seroiusly it's freaking damn scary! everytime i see that ugly creature, i scream."
and i reply to her,
"darn! it's just a game. nothing to be afraid of. if you scream again, i'm propably gonna jump downstairs, shocked."

and we continued our games. 8actually, im the one who played the game, not her. tee hee*
and when i reached this one place, she screamed! this time, i screamed to, not because im freaked out, it's because i was so shock by her screams!
yeah! watch the video up there. there's the part where she always scream!
argh!!!
anyway, im enjoying it!
im also sometime loved teasing her! she's kinda coward you know! *whoopsie, sorry girl! didn't mean to offense you, im just joking around*

-well then, enjoy my stupid story for today! RESIDENT EVIL 4 ROCKS! *actually, im attracted to LEON S KENNEDY, the main character of this game, tee hee1*

Monday, March 26

oh yeah! this is my reactions towards elfen lied~~

silly....
yeah.....when i first time watching it...i was shocked.
and i was like..."da fuq! it contains nudity?! damn, my eyes burning!"
but, it doesen't contain any porn, trust me, no porn inside this anime....

porn in japanese is hentai.
this anime contains ecchi.

Sunday, March 25

~don't ever judge me by my look~ *wink-wink*

oh well, quiet a time i didn't update my blog.
hu...(=__=;;)\\

I just wanna express something in here.
oh well, it's about fashion. nowadays fashion REALLY doesn't fit my taste.
really not my taste....(=__=;;)
definitely not my style...
like above pics...seriously, id on't really like that kind of fashion...AND... i don't even know what kind of fashion is that! (i know im kinda retard....sorry girls out there)
oh well, you wanna know what kind of fashion i like?
I LIKE SOMETHING LIKE MANSION WEAR...(Okay, i know some of you might think im such a crazy or whatever it is)
don't know what is MANSION WEAR IT IS? let me show you what it is........ in 3..2..1... here we go!
lolita
elegant gothic lolita 
gothic subcultural (japanese mini kimono)
pics above really screams my name!!! yeah! i love that kind of fashion! oh i forgot something. let me introduce you what gothic fashion is.... okay?

GOTHIC: The term Gothic is the same as goth, Gothdom, gothik etc. The only difference is noun or adjective use. Goth is typically used as either a noun (especially when referring to a person) or an adjective; Gothic is usually an adjective e.g. That person is a Goth. Those boots are gothic. Goth is often capitalized when referring to a person. However, capitalization can be arbitrary. There is no general distinction between these terms or standards for usage. For our purposes, we'll use these words interchangeably.
Gothic: Of or pertaining to a literary style of fiction prevalent in the late 18th and early 19th centuries which emphasized the grotesque, mysterious, and desolate: a gothic novel. [This is the relevant definition in the dictionary. Think of Mary Shelley's Frankenstein and the works of Edgar Allen Poe.]
What does gothic mean in regards to the group of people? Here's where it gets confusing. There are things that many Goths like that are not gothic (Industrial or Classical music). There are things that are gothic that many Goths dislike (vampires, interest in death). There are things that some people think are gothic that are not gothic (bands like Marilyn Manson and Nine Inch Nails), and there are things that do not call themselves gothic even if they are considered gothic by most people (bands like Sisters of Mercy and Dead Can Dance). However, there's no Grand Gothic Judge to decree what is truly Goth and what is not, although there are plenty of people who claim to be it. It's an ambiguous label with many people using it that don't understand what it means. The people who do understand it often have many different definitions. (source:google)

FASHIONS!
ELEGANT GOTHIC LOLITA:  
Lolita fashion (ロリータ・ファッション RorÄ«ta fasshon?) is a fashion subculture originating in Japan that is based on Victorian-era clothing as well as costumes from the Rococo period, but the style has expanded greatly beyond these two.[1] The Lolita look began primarily as one of modesty with a focus on quality in both material and manufacture of garments. The original silhouette is of a knee length skirt or dress with a 'cupcake' shape assisted by petticoats, but has expanded into various types of garments including corsets and floor lengths skirts. Blouses, knee high socks or stockings and headdresses are also worn.[2] Lolita fashion has evolved into several different sub styles and has a subculture that is present in many parts of the world.
Although the origin of Lolita fashion is unclear, it is likely the movement started in the late 1970s when famous labels including Pink House, Milk and Pretty (later known as Angelic Pretty) began selling clothes that would be considered "Lolita" by today's standards. Shortly after that came Baby, The Stars Shine Bright, and Metamorphose temps de fille. In the 1990s, Lolita fashion became better recognized, with bands likePrincess Princess coming into popularity at the time. These bands wore intricate costumes, which fans began adopting as their own style.[3]The style soon spread from its origins in the Kansai region, and ultimately reached Tokyo where it became popularized throughout Japaneseyouth culture. Today, Lolita fashion has gained global popularity and can be found even in department stores in Japan. (source:google)
some of the dressing (this is the proper attire)
Gothic lolita, sometimes shortened to GothLoli (ゴスロリ gosu rori?), is a combination of the Gothic and Lolita fashion.[citation needed] The fashion originated in the late 1990s in Harajuku.[6]
Gothic Lolita fashion is characterized by darker make-up and clothing.[7] Red lipstick and smokey or neatly defined eyes, created using black eyeliner, are typical styles, although as with all Lolita sub-styles the look remains fairly natural.[8] Though Gothic make-up is associated with a white powdered face, this is usually considered bad taste within the Lolita fashion.[9] Some Lolita uses dark color schemes including black, dark blues and purples, although black and white remains popular.[citation needed]. As with some Western Gothic styles, cross jewelry, religious symbols, bags and purses in shapes like bats, coffins, and crucifixes are also used to accessorize the Gothic Lolita look.[10]
Elegant Gothic Lolita (EGL) and Elegant Gothic Aristocrat (EGA) are substyles of gothic lolita (and of aristocrat fashion) created by thevisual kei rock musician Mana with his fashion label Moi-même-Moitié.[11]
Japanese brands which exemplify the darker lolita style include Atelier-Pierrot, Atelier Boz, Black Peace Now, h. NAOTO Blood and Moi-même-Moitié.
one of the famous label.
this is the founder, MANA-SAMA! (ex malice mizer, moi dix mois)
SWEET LOLITA:

Sweet Lolita, also known as ama-loli (甘ロリ ama rori?) in Japanese, is heavily influenced by Rococo styles as well as Victorian and Edwardian clothing. Focusing on the fantasy aspects of Lolita, the Sweet Lolita style adopts the basic Lolita format and uses lighter colors and childlike motifs in its design.
Makeup used in sweet Lolita is common throughout most Lolita styles. Pink, Peach, or Pearl make up styles are highly 'sweet' and used by many Sweet Lolitas. This look, paired with a shade of bright pink, red or sometimes nude-pink lipstick, is commonly used as well.
Outfits consist of pastels, fruit themes (cherries or strawberries, or any type of sugary fruit), flowers (roses, jasmines, lily, cherry blossoms) lace, bows, animal themes (cats, bunnies, puppies) and ribbons to emphasize the cuteness of the design. Popular themes in the sweet Lolita are references to Alice in Wonderland, sweets, and classic fairy tales. Jewelry often reflects this fantasy theme. Headdresses, bonnets and bows are a popular hair accessory to the sweet Lolita look. Bags and purses usually have a princess-like design and often take the shape of strawberries, crowns, hearts, and stuffed animals.
Examples for Sweet Lolita brands are Angelic PrettyBaby, The Stars Shine Bright and Metamorphose temps de fille. Emily Temple cute (sister brand of Shirley Temple, a Japanese boutique), Jane Marple, and MILK are brands that carry more clothing that would be considered more casual, and are available to purchase at department stores in Japan.
isn't it cute?
totally gorgeous!
ELEGANT GOTHIC ARISTOCRATS:

Elegant Gothic Aristocrat (EGA) is a subset of Gothic Lolita fashion, popular in Japan. The term Elegant Gothic Aristocrat was originally coined by Mana, a fashion designer and former band leader of Malice Mizer, and is used to describe his brand of clothing carried in his store Moi-même-Moitié. EGA gained momentum on the Japanese fashion streets in the late 1990’s when their onstage rock-idol attire spread like wild fire among his fans. Eventually, the style became more accessible when mainstream stores began to carry EGA apparel.
The style imitates the mature decadence of the late Victorian era, with emphasis on simplicity and elegance. It is an androgynous style consisting of black and white, dark colours and natural tones with delicate detailing such as ruffles or lace trimmings, and completed with black, clunky boots and heavy makeup. Accessories are also essential items in achieving the EGA look. They include corsets, gloves, waistcoats, conspicuous pocket books, stockings, bows and top hats. Unlike the Lolita fashions, Elegant Gothic Aristocrats wear long skirts or wide-legged trousers, tailored and streamlined jackets, and tight-fitting, long-sleeved shirts and blouses. Aristocrat is a Japanese street fashion that is inspired by what is thought to have been worn by Middle Class and higher social statusEuropeans in the Middle Ages, as well as the upper class in the 19th century. The fashion includes long sleeve blouses and shirts, long skirts,corsetry, and pants and dresses that are styled similarly for men and women, since it is centered on androgyny and elegance. Makeup, when worn with the fashion, is on the darker side, may be heavy, and can be worn by both genders.
Madam, the feminine version, is more influenced by 19th century fashion. The fashion includes, in addition to the above, dresses with feminine but not usually frilly styling in a variety of colors. Makeup, when worn, is usually mature and on the slightly heavier side, though not excessive.
EGA
GUESS WHAT? he's the one who brings those fashion! love him!
you get it now? 
oh wait, there's more.
i just wanna highlights this, especially for them who'd like to wear this fashion, please take a note, okay.

this is where usually most people make mistake in malaysia...(im sorry, don;t be mad at me. i just wanna to correct the errors you make.okay?)
the shoes, goth didn't wear a flat ballet shoes. usually, they wear platform shoes. 
this the one...okay?
black and red platform shoes.



Friday, March 23

fine, i know who i am...



come on la!
memang macam ni ke perangai manusia??
when someone fail, they treat you like a trash, but someone in succes,they treat you like a king?

cukuplah, orang lain pun ada je yang mungkin fail,tetapi diorang masih lagi mendapat
sokongan, tak dilayan seperti sampah....
tapi kenapa aku?
apa salah aku?
oh, i get it now, aku tak genius, tak pandai.
okay, fine, aku terima seadanya.
aku tak sepandai adik aku yang kedua tu.
aku tak layak dapat penghargaan,kan?
okay, aku terima seadanya.
aku terima......

Tuesday, March 20

Last Snow

my frosted breath melts in the air
upon the crisped midnight
i can't even see the stars
the snow falls around the clasped hand
as if to hide them away
powdered snow lying thickly
colours everything in white
and faintly conceals cruel reality
so placed your numbed hands
softly on top of mine
and just like that together we will sink into the snow


the pure white snow will hide us two away
so don't stop yet
more, just a little longer still
keep deceiving me with lies
until this snow fall ends
a transient honeymoon
the sad wish I've kept hidden away
suddenly feels like it'll overflow
see only me
don't ever let go
hold me tight 
and
stay here by my side
but my unfulfilled wish
still remain unsaid
to melt and dissapear like the dancing snow

powdered snow lying thickly
colours everything in white
and faintly conceals cruel reality
even with our numbed hands
softly intertwined
i will never reflect in your eyes
promises, smiles and warmth
blur together as if waking from a dream
really though, I had known
a long, long time ago
you would never live here with me.


Thursday, March 15

~*~ DIY choker for all! ~*~

hi!!!
for entry today, i'd like to share how to make your own choker!
kat malaysia ni susah nak carik la coker....
so, bile buat sendiri lagi puas ati, kan???
haha!

coker!
first of all, things that you need:
-lacey headband (you can use any colour you like, for me, i like black and white colour)
-black ribbon (available at any bookstore, but it's quite hard to find it at my place)
-glue. (not a watery glue...)
-old necklace(the one that you don't use it anymore)
-any accessories that you like to add.
-black and white thread.

these are the things that you need.
okay, here's the step:
1-first of all, you cut your lacey headband into two pieces
2-take one of it (the other one you can keep it)
3- sew the lacey headband a little.
cut it into half like this, and fold it (like the below one)
4-cut your black ribbon, make sure it has the same length with the lace headband.
5-use the dry glue (not the watery glue) to glue the ribbon together with the lacey headband.
im using this glue, quite pricey, but i love it!

make sure it has the same length like this.
6-sew it a little at the end of both of the lacey headband. (just to make sure)
7-after that, you can sew your old accessories onto the lacey headband, based on your creativity.
8-after finish sewing it, cut your black ribbon and sew it both at the end of your choker.

VOILA!!!
FINISH!

easy right???
it only take a few hours to do it.
good luck!

VOILA!!
p/s: sorry if i have grammar mistake.

Tuesday, March 13

~*cekodok pisang recipe! *~

hi!
entri kali ni, i nak share cara2 buat cekodok pisang!!
oh well, i lagi suka cekodok yg i buat sendiri,
pasal,
kebanyakan cekdok kat luar tu, tak kene dengan i punye taste bud.
ada sekali i beli cekodok yang keras.
rasa macam makan bebola kek pisang je rasa.
tepung je banyak, pisangnye entah ghaib ke mana...
ok, ok.... tak nak bebel lagi...

cekodok pisang
bahan-bahan:
sesikat pisang
tepung
gula

cara-cara:
pertama sekali, kita lenyekkan pisang kita sampai lembik.
kemudian, letak tepung dan kacau dengan pisang yang kita dah lenyek tadi.
kacau kedua2 bahan tu sampai nampak pekat..
(sebab kalau cair, dia tak jadi.)
kemudian, letak lebih kurang 2 sudu besar gula sebagai flavouring nya.

kemudian, panaskan minyak...ok.. ni satu tips...
kalau nak cekodok kite sedap...jangan sesekali guna minyak yang telah diguna untuk goreng benda lain.
nanti rasa cekodok tu tak manis..

bile minyak dah betul2 panas, baru kita masukkan doh tadi...
goreng sampai warna coklat...
siap!!!

hahah!!! enjoy yer!!!

Sunday, March 11

~* it tickles me like hell! *~

rain...rain..go away..
please come another day....
*i wanna go to satdium this evening!!!*

oh well, wanna know a very funny thing about me??
i dont like massage!
seriously, i hate it.
wanna know why?

why?? doshite??
it felt very ticklish you know!
especially when someone masaaging my neck and my shoulders....
its very tickles!!!

stop it!!
or i'll shoot you!
with this gun!!!
raawwwrrr!!!
funny and stupid, right??
heheh~~

Friday, March 9

~story of my life~

good evening!!

hi dears!

man, im so tired today...
*sigh*
you know what? this evening, i did my tae kwon do practice that i haven't practice it for almost
six years!!!!!!
guess what??
muscles cramp!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
the pain!!!
damn!
our sifu...(me and my fren did the practice together), Sadiq (my neighbour) he teaches us..
ugh! the torture!!!
his warming up session...very torturing!!!
the pain!!!!
aarrggh!!! my muscles cramp!! stop it right now!!
geez...
even my old master didn't do a very torturing warming up session like him..
(i prefer my old master warming up session better than him)
help...
need someone to massage my aching feet...
uuuuu.....
the pleasure...the pleasure.... XD

Thursday, March 8

~ A very funny moment in my class last year ~

A very good day dearest angels!!!
wow! its a very cold weather today (raining non-stop from last midnight till this early morning)
im shivering!! so cold!!
anyway, i wanna share this funny story.
I still remember this funny moment,
it was our history class, we all were waiting our teacher.
she's kinda late that day..
(but its okay! we all like it when teachers late entering class! hahahha!
because, we can playing around...hahah, so lazy!)

just imagine our class having fun like this...(well almost.....><)
suddenly our teacher came...and we quickly return to our own place...
and act like we didn't do anything....
with innocent face (more to poker face i must say..hahah!)

poker face

suddenly, our teacher took out a scissors....and said
"spot check! all boys get up! who's hair is long, i'll cut it!"
all the boys were very stunned, i can see many reaction on their face and what inside their mind.

NO WAY!!!!
NO!!! I JUST HAD MY HAIR CUT YESTERDAY!!!
(its in their mind...i can read their mind that time)
But, one boy, Eddie, looks very happy...
and he said......
"YAY! A FREE HAIR CUT!!!! THAT WILL SAVE MY POCKET MONEY!!!"

a hair cut!!!!!! YAY!!!
all the girls inside the class burst out laugh!
man!
Eddie sometimes can be such a dork!
(bur he's such a smart boy i admit!)
hhahaha!

these were our reaction.....hahah!
so, our teacher started her spot check.
most of the boys had been cut their hair...
when it come to one boy, we call him Suki (his name is Shauki.)
he starts shivering....
our teacher became weird with his reaction...
"hey! relax, im not gonna eat you! i just wanna cut your hair! why are you shivering?"

oh well, Suki always like that...
when it come to something shocking (especially when teacher asked him for doing a presentation or what-so-ever, he'll shivers)
again, we, girls burst out laugh!


MAN!!
THAT'S THE MOST FUNNIEST MOMENT EVER..
EPIC FACES FROM OUR CLASSMATES!!
HAHAH!

MORAL: HAVE YOUR HAIR CUT BEFORE THE TEACHER CUT YOUR HAIR!!

(sorry if i have grammar mistake)

Wednesday, March 7

~ finishing my comics~~ =="

good day, angels!

im now a little busy....finishing my comics!
yeah....
i know.... i think i;ve post about it before, rite (Am I?)

so.... gonna finish my comics!!!
lalala~

how i love drawing manga!
manga, anime and games (especially RESIDENT EVIL, my favourite!)
are my life! my soul!!!!
oh wow! im really a retard......
dammit! ><